Im  ill :'(
My muscles hurt and I feel like I will throw up but I'm not throwing up :(
i dont like vomit.


had the strangest dream..
I was at Ruus house with linda, Ruu, Priya, Sarah, Dibs and the other one I forget the name of, me and Lindz were sitting on the sofa, and Sarah left the room . Priya and the other one then turn to linda and say : "I cant believe sarah is still here! She is such a bitch" Linda is like" I know Oh my Gosh!"
Me; Who's sarah?
As sarah walks back into the room she says seh is sarah. I'm like oh ok, everyone else is in an uncomfortable silence. she asks me why and looks hurt and I tell her I wasnt talking about her I thought she was someone else and she starts to cry..
I remember feeling terrible..
then i dont remember what happened, i think something to do with a car, then I'm in a big church/cathedral thing and I know I'm having a lecture given by a priest on Pharmacology or something.. The lecture finishes, I walk up to the alter and there is this little chavvy 14 year old standing there telling the priest she is sorry she missed the lecture but she needs the lecture notes.

He then looks at me bored and says that I need to give her mine.

I ask her if we can go to the library, she says no, she doesnt have time but for me to give her the notes and she will give them back to me tomorrow.. I tell her i have placement tomorrow and she then starts telling me she doesnt care and she wants my notes, why am i being mean? I tell her they were mine andshe begins to scream and swear at me calling me a bitch. Her friends join in screaming at me and I dont do anything back.. I want to desperatly but I noe the priest is looking so I start yelling at them instead STOP!! WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?! WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?

they look at me like, we dont care. and continue to attack me verbally and I think physically..

It left me feeling upset.. and disconcerted.. erm.. ya.. weird.
Placement today.
Bored-ed. feel like a novice there..

feel ill :'(

.. ..
Yesh XD

I bet you all thought Petra didnt know how to lj cut..

XD

I have a purple toe :'(

It is purple and slightly puffy.. I noticed it when I was in the shower this morning..
Did I bruise it?? Did I get bitten? It doesnt hurt..

HELP!


Ahhh!!
And I was on MSN with bea;

Choose the highest bidder was my answer when they told me I was up for sale. says:
poor baby
Choose the highest bidder was my answer when they told me I was up for sale. says:
purple isn't a good colour
Choose the highest bidder was my answer when they told me I was up for sale. says:
but you should use the rare opportunity to paint your toenails gold
[ ebbles [ S erpig.. Spiderpig says:
 LOL
[ ebbles [ S erpig.. Spiderpig says:
great advice XD
Choose the highest bidder was my answer when they told me I was up for sale. says:
its the best thing to do in purple toe times
[ ebbles [ S erpig.. Spiderpig says:
i never thought of that
[ ebbles [ S erpig.. Spiderpig says:
thankyou XD


XD
I would post a picture of my purple toe, but then again. I have toes that look like the fingers of midgets.
I have disgusting feet.. ugly duck feet with really long toes *shivers* its like a hand at the end of my foot

(exaggeration)

It actually would put foot fetishers off. Completely.

XD

I apologize for the extra long posts..
JUST GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I dont know how to shorten things XD
Just when it needs to get out and there is no other medium..

ON A PLUS NOTE;

I made food today and I had loads so I told linda she had to eat some.

I made PERFECT rice.
and PERFECT BOLOGNESE
XD

Perfect perfect rice

The type that doesnt stick together XD

Perfect perfect rice XD

So happy about my rice.

Yummy rice.

XD

Drama.

Is the bitch going?

Both me and Linda were discussing and we began feeling guilty.

MAYBE we were overreacting. It as just a push after all..
MAYBE she has some stuff going on that she doesnt really share.
WE dont want her education to suffer.
SHE has NOWHERE else to go.

Did what she do REALLY merit throwing her out?
Ok, She is racist towards me. Prejudiced towards Kenny. Patronising to Linda.

Maybe. Just MAYBE. We are being too quick to judge her.

Linda and I were talking and we were like, well, maybe..
MAYBE. we should ask the landlord to give her a serious warning.
SO she knows we are angry. And that he is willing to kick her out in an instant..

We were SERIOUSLY thinking about it.

Then the landlord rang linda and we were like, well, we are not so sure anymore. .
So he was like, think about it, I dont like her anyway.

Then today, I go up to my room to finish some lecture notes and I hear from downstairs Esther say to linda, can I talk to you.

My curiosity started to buzz. but I stayed on my bed.
I then hear my name so I was like.. OKAY!!

I listened as she fed linda her bullshit.
How She was not sorry for pushing me because the way she saw it, my tone (which was civilised and neutral) merited it.
How I was in her way and she had to leave quickly so she saw no other alternative to push me and when she pushed me I moved so she could leave.
How I was very rude to her, and She wasnt sorry.

Linda was like;
You are not sorry for pushing Petra?

Esther; No. She was rude to me and it wasnt necessary.
Lindz: So you had to push her?
Esther: Yes. She wouldnt get out of my way, I had to leave quickly and she was being rude.
Lindz: Esther, there is NEVER an excuse for violence.
Esther: I KNOW. BUT. She was rude to me. Her tone was rude. She was rude.
Lindz: I was there, she wasnt rude to you Esther
Esther: She was rude to me there, you saw it. She was rude.
Lindz: Dont put words in my mouth I saw you be rude unecessarily, nothing that happened in that kitchen meritted violence
Esther: (after raising her voice beforehand) Linda, there is no reason to raise your voice. Would you talk to your mother like that?

..
LOADS OF THINGS WERE SAID.
Esther calling linda "sketchy" because Linda never shared her chocolate with Esther and Linda didnt tell Esther she was going out clubbing before she did.

Esther asked linda as linda got angry whether linda spoke to her mother like that. And Linda was like, WTF? respect works two ways. Dont compare yourself to my mother.
Esther was like. Age difference. (Esther and Linda are both Ghanaian. In Ghana, if a person is older than you, like Esther is, you are supposed to be respectful towards them. Esther has proved that she believes herself to be the "leader" of the house just because she is the oldest (by years. not maturity))

How can she compare herself and the way linda talks to her with lindas mother. At the end of the day, Linda and Esther are both in the SAME YEAR AT UNI. EVEN THOUGH Esther is older.

Esther also basically proved that she is jealous of mine and Lindys bond. ERM.

I'm sorry, but I have known linda since Carmisha introduced us in year SEVEN. I became proper friends with linda in year 10
when we both started taking ICT together and she has been there for me through all my emo crap these past three years (RE: rents. Crap. Rents. Crap. Crap. Crap (Basically all of my many emo posts, she knows about most of them) ) 

Esther knows me and linda have been through Secondary and College together. HOW CAN SHE GET PISSED BECAUSE LINDA TELLS ME ABOUT CRAP AND NOT HER?

Linda is one of those people that can't open up straight away, she needs to know someone properly before she becomes properly comfortable and able to speak her mind.

Esther obviously took this as a sign of a submissive personality. Well. Lindy is a contradiction. She may not always speak her mind, but that doesnt mean she doesnt have one. It will come out eventually.

To quote the lady herself  "Once my nerves pass their threshold level.."



Esther was saying something involving curse words (Esther likes curse words, it puts her stupidness across even more) and Linda was like -- > See, THATS what pisses me off, its like bullshit.
Esther was like --> Dont swear linda

ERM. I was like WTF? (in my room) thinking to myself. what a hypocrite and all I hear is Linda ;

DONT FUCKING TELL ME NOT TO SWEAR!

I was like. Wow.

XD

Go Linda (mini flag)

It just. Went round in circles.
AND OF COURSE THE CHRISTIAN HYPOCRITE BROUGHT UP GOD AND CHURCH.

Linda went to church this morning. Esther was in bed

Esther asked linda why she didnt call her.
Linda was like, well if I'm pissed off with you, I dont want to spend time with you, I want to be alone.
Esther was like, well what if I wanted to go to church.
Lindy was like. You could have gotten up and gone, dont expect me to get you out of bed.
Esther was then like, Well you went to church cos you obviously wanted to pray
(no sense to that comment but.)
Linda was like, yeah. And?
Esther was like "Well, What did you pray about?" all aggressive like.

...

Prayer. Is. Personal.

GRRR!!

I CANT EVEN REMEMBE RSOME OF THE CRAP SHE SPAT OUT!
IT WA SSO RIDICULOUS.

I will remember. and keep a pen and paper so I can record the stupidity


She then came up to my room and said she wanted to talk.
I said to her to write down everything she wants to say to me as "she does not appear to benefit from verbal interactions".


Bitch.
GRRR!!

Cheese..
*sigh*


Mini Cheddars are shmexy

and Mature Cheddar..

*drool*

I took this day off to study..

GET OFF THE LAPTOP PETRA!

XD

SO After depression that lasted a day XD
(Petra was emo-esque)

Petra is happy XD

NOT ONLY because a guy I like hugged me yesterday as I was leaving uni (smelled SHMEXY)
NOT ONLY because I just tried out Ruu's recipe for putting some hot chocolate into my coffee as an extra pick-me-up
NOT ONLY because I bunked placement today, ringing them up complaining of diorreagh AND THEREFORE laying in bed till midday..

No.

Petra is happy/high because of many more reasons (Choco choco XD)

Main Reason;

THE BITCH IS GETTING KICKED OUT

Lindy rang the landlord last night and told him we want her out. She's been violent for no reason. STILL HASNT CLEANED THE DAMN MICROWAVE. and all dont want to live in a house with her. and the landlord was like.. Ok. I'll give her her notice.

Lalala

I read and re-read the house Tenancy agreement and found she breached two clauses. Therefore, the landlord is within his rights.

30 days.

XD
She will be out before xmas.

Lalalalalalalalalalaaaa

*Sings happily*

I know have a smile back on my face.. I now have a bounce back in my step.
I am happy XD

(readying for myself for hell to break loose as the "tiger is released from it's cage"
She is leaving anyway now..
What will she do now that she knows she is going to get kicked out anyway..)


Happy Happy Happy (slight worry) HAPPY

Ok, was gonna post a long arse post about how great my weekend was.. because it was GREAT.
I got to see my friends who I hadnt seen in ages.
I got to meet new and amazing peoples, I got to be somewhere I've always wanted to be.. It was great.
I was on SUCH a high..


But today its just pathetic.

Today has hit a new low and I feel like complete SHIT right now.. ITs like.. WTF?
ANd im so angry/stressed/upset/angry/GRRR/WTF/EMO/GRRRRRRRRRR

She got violent. The anti-muslim racist bitch got violent with me and wtf?!?! IT WAS STUPIDER THAN THE BREAD!

Me and Linda were in the kitchen making our foods.. and then I open the microwave to put in my baked beans and the microwave is covered in this yellow mess. I took a photo;




I took various photos, just so the landlord can see what started it.

I knew Esther was the last person to use the microwave, but to not jump into an arguement I asked her POLITELY.

"Esther, were you the last person to use the microwave?"
Her -*ANGRY SIGH* MAYBE MAYBE NOT.
Me - What do you mean maybe? Its either a yes or a no.
Her - YES I USED IT. SO?
Me - Well can you clean it please
Her - No I cannot clean it, can't you see I don't have time?
Me - But thats not fair, its dirty and I want to use it, there are four people in this house esther, its not just you.
Her - SHUT THE FUCK UP PETRA BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN PISSING ME OFF ALL DAY.
Me - What? Esther its not fair. If it was any of us you would make us clean it.
Her - FUCK OFF FUCK OFF.

She then walks into the bathroom to finish getting ready (the kitchen is in between the bathroom and the living room. you need to walk through the kitchen to get to the bathroom and then back again to leave or visit the rest of the house)
As she reenters the kitchen I step in front of her.
Me - Esther, please, look at the microwave
Her - Get out of my way you stupid bitch.
Me - NO. Look at the microwave, would you use it?

She then puts her face right up close to mine and shouts at me spraying me with her spit
Linda is now yelling at Esther to calm down.

Her - MOVE BEFORE I MAKE YOU.

She then pushes me away from her.
PUSHES ME.

PUSH.
I screamed at her "Dont you dare push me"
She then walks quickly around me and leaves the kitchen.

Me - Im gonna call the landlord you stupid bitch, thats assauly
Her - Call the police for all I fucking care.
 
She then slammed the door and I promptly ran upstairs for my phone. Stopped myself thinking ; Am i Overreacting?
I come downstairs shaking with that adrenaline-ness and handed my phone to linda.

Linda nad Kenny comforted me as I started punching walls in anger. Linda then rang the landlord saying she no longer feels safe in the house and telling me it wasnt overreacting.
and then drama drama drama.
The landlord told us he hated her. I sounded like a dick on the phone.

I felt like a dick.
Like wtf?!
The bitch PUSHED me . She didnt hit me. So not THAT bad. But she pushed me. And what made me feel worste was that I did nothing.

You see, I wasnt scared of her, not for a second. I kept thinking, if I hit her, I'm in trouble. If i hit her, I'm in trouble.

And I think THAT is why I feel like crap.
She VIOLATED ME.
ASSAULTED ME. Merely her swearing at me and yelling at me and invading my personal space was assault.

ANd yet I feel like a pussy. I feel like I let her win. She walked out that house after laying her hands on me. I did nothing to defend myself.

Nothing.
I feel so useless and defenceless. I rang my mum and she didnt get it, and then Nia rang me after I text her and she didnt get it either. Its like, I cant believe she did it, and yet even worste is that I cant believe I let her.

I feel weak and broken and I just feel like crap.
I feel like I've been hyping about not letting her get the best of me. but in a way she did.

I can see Steph in my head telling me I'm a pussy and I should have hit her, but i couldnt.

Its like I'm crying tears of anger and frustration right now and I cant help it. I let her win. Lindz and Kenny are like, OH well, the landlord is gonna evict her. HE has to kick her out.
Will that be a victory?

I dont know what I'm feeling.
Crap basically.

Verbally, I gave her as good as she gave me. (apart from I didnt swear.. much)
but physically..
I flopped.

I just feel crap. like WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TODAY?

I'm crying because I'm angry.
Angry at her for being a bitch
Angry at her for being stupid
Angry at myself for being helpless.

Do I even make sense? Am I over dramatising? All she did was push me.. Would it have been better if I had pushed her back?

I want her gone from this house, and so does everyone else..

Meh.

So the  'good christian' anti-muslim racist Shithead apologized to me.

I was happy. I thanked her and told her that I think highly of her for doing it.

The anti muslim racist shithead THEN proceeded to tell me that next time I should just keep my big fat portuguese mouth shut.

ERM.
WTF?

She also tried to start with Lindy but lindy wont rise to it. I respect her greatly for that.

I have a lot of love for linda. I consider her one of my closest friends (owing to the fact that she is very easy to talk to and i find myself spilling my family drama onto her.. and then im like.. why the fuck did i tell her that?! but its great cos she doesnt judge)

So I am very naive.

I assumed that after we had the discussion in which I informed her that if I saw injustice I would not hesitate to open my mouth. Because its not right.

She replied that God (yes. she brought up God. I think it was because I called her a hypocrite when it comes to religion as I told her she talks about god and yet God never told people to be racist or prejudiced. I dont think she liked that) That God would not punish me if I did not help someone in need.

ERM.

If I have the ability to help someone who needs help. ERM. I will. otherwise why do I have the ability to help if it cant be used. (odd choice of words but yoiu get it)

She then replied that not everyone will rush to my defence if I needed help.

I replied that I didnt care, because I feel better knowing that someone is feeling better about themselves because I helped them. Or that someones life is made a little easier. 

she looked at me like . WTF?

I  basically would not let her have her own way. I would let her have her little speeches in which she tries to justify to herself her dominance issues but I would always reply that she has to be understanding of others, and that she WILL NOT get her own way when she is living with THREE OTHER independant women.

She is not the boss.


she searches for arguements . and since i got back ahs been rude. She resents the fact that me and lindy are close. and that I have an opinion. I dont like confrontation. but when it comes down to it, I have an opinion.


I HAVE AN OPINION BITCH. DEAL WITH IT.

she is angry with linda because linda is Ghanaian and yet is not taking her side.

ERM.
Bitch please.

Linda has an opinion.

PEOPLE HAVE OPINIONS. DEAL WITH IT.

(Anime Expo Saturday XD - Going to london again tomorrow night XD)

So she came down yesterday (The only real issue in my life at the mo lol.)
And brought down her folders and sat in the living room whilst me and linda were chatting..
We were laughing about some random shizzen that had NOTHING to do with Esther and Esther knew this because she was obviously hanging onto our every word.. (this is, of course the girl who stands at her door listening to our conversations)

and then;

Esther: Could you two please keep it down. (rudely) I'm trying to work.

erm.
 
I just stared at her like WTF?

Me: Erm. Living Room?

she just cut her eye at me whilst linda stared in disbelief. so i just started continuing the conversation with linda.. (of course i had forgotten what i was saying) and after about a minute, Esther, the 27year old CHILD huffed and grabbed her stuff and went up to her room.

???
Like wtf?
If we were in her room, ok. But we were laughing with each other TALKING with each other -- IN THE LIVING ROOM --
She does not own the house. She cannot order us about.

AND WHY WAS SHE BEING RUDE TO LINDA?!

OMFG!
BITCHBITCHBITCHBITCH

she wants extra channels. She wants a landline.
The rest of us dont really need it, it would end up making us pay more
==>
GRRR

We just had a MAHOOSIVE arguement.

Its got so bad that Linda has just sought refuge at her friend Ru's house.

---

Esther is a bitch.

apparently;

• PETRA IS STUPID  BECAUSE PETRA THINKS THAT SHE CAN BE BUBBLY AND TALK TO PEOPLE STRAIGHT AWAY LIKE THEY ARE FRIENDS.
• THAT TYPE OF PERSON IS STUPID.
• PETRA IS STUPID AND SHOULD SHUT UP BECAUSE SHE SHOULD NOT TALK FOR OTHER PEOPLE (ie. Sticking up for Kenny, and also, on the topic of the phone line, saying to Esther nicely; If you still want it then you could think about getting it and keeping it in your room)
• PETRA DOESNT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ABOUT ESTHER BECAUSE PETRA IS NOT AFRICAN.
• PETRA IS NOT NECESSARY IN THE HOUSE BECAUSE ESTHER IS THE ONE WHO FOUND THE HOUSE AND PETRA WAS FOUND BY LINDA ONLY BECAUSE THEY WERE DESPERATE AND ESTHERS OTHER FRIENDS LET HER DOWN
• PETRA WILL BE THE ONE TO MOVE.
• IF PETRA TRIES TO MAKE LIFE HELL FOR ESTHER ESTHER WILL PERSONALLY REMOVE PETRAS ITEMS FROM THE HOUSE AND THROW THEM ONTO THE STREET
• ESTHER CONFIRMS SHE WOULD HAVE PREFERRED A CHRISTIAN IN THE HOUSE
• PETRA IS IGNORANT> (although Esther would not comment why)
• PETRA SHOULD GO HOME AND ARGUE WITH HER MUM AND SISTER
• PETRA SHOULD PACK HER THINGS AND GO BECAUSE SHE IS NOT WELCOME AND DOESNT FIT IN.

ERM.

I am stupid because I believe in giving everyone an equal chance and then letting them decide how they want to be seen?
I treated her like a friend. I spoke to her like a friend --> I remember thinking, I'm so lucky to have such lovely housemates.
Now she wants to go and act like a bitch?
She actually had the GALL to say to me;
People like me dont understand people like her (ie. Unafrican. African)

and that she would ACTUALLY throw my stuff out of the house if I QUOTE give her grief UNQUOTE

wtf?

SOOO much more shit she said while i sort of sat here laughing at her with disbelief..
I lost my temper but at least i didnt stoop to her level and start swearing at her

Cant be bothered to type at the mo..
might write out my emotions..

I FEEL LIKE WRITING HER A LETTER ABOUT WHY SHE IS SUCH A DICK AND WHY I AM SO ANGRY

but meh.
am going to london tomoz night.
decided before not because of this arguement.

I'm fake apparently.
I pretend to be nice.
erm.
Pot. calling. the. kettle. black.

Can bacon be fried?

--> what i love about uni
    ----------------> Experimental cooking-ness

yes.. no dioreagh yet... so im assuming its alright..

Esther --> still a bitch.
but now to linda..
         
                        
                               WTF DOES LINDY HAVE TO DO WITH THE ARGUEMENT?!

That pissed me off.
she didnt get out of the shower till 8.30 this morning. She knew Linda wanted a shower and that we all had to start at 9.
I smartly got in early cos i suspected she might try to do something like this to me or kenny but not linda.
linda ==> neutral.

i just dont get how she can be so immature?!

Lindz agreed with me about my theory of Esther being anti-muslim.

Apparently she kept delaying the girl who was suposed to move in in my place because she was a devout muslim who wore a head scarf..

ERM.
it is 2007.
??
Arent we suposed to be the generation of tolerance?
Who cares if person A is muslim?
Esther should start acting her 27 year and stop behaving like a child.
I mean, SERIOUSLY? Religion is important, but at the end of the day, all religions BASICALLY say the same thing. Its just guidelines of common sense.

Dont kill. Dont steal. etc etc.

We are all the same.. what?! Does she thinks if she has a muslim living with her she will be attacked by demons as she sleeps?!?

Dont be so ignorant!
And this is someone who preaches the bible. who sings hymns and gospel music around the house.. and yet she is so stupidly prejudiced?

W.T.F

Why are there so many hypocrite christians ?!
It makes me ashamed of my fellow believers sometimes.

One world. Why dont they get it?

O oooh and update on the drama of the house..

No rats, although it takes me 3 hours to switch off my light as I'm terrified as I do Pattycakes second cousin will appear on my pillow..
(will upload my photos of Pattycake XD)

Esther and I still arent talking.

I will be stubborn until she apologizes for screaming at me to shutup. and being a general racist/prejudiced idiot.

Erm..

Kehinde and Linda are my bumchums XD
Love them. 

Esther sort of does not understand that she cannot guilt trip me. Or silent treat me into talking to her..

I have played these games my whole life, I know how to win. 
Its hilarious..

And how did she spend HOURS in the bathroom this morning after waking up late AGAIN and preventing me from brushing my teeth and getting out of the house?!
its a good thing I was up early and brushing my teeth was the ONLY thing left to do. 

Lindz said she wouldnt wait for Esther anymore, as she's always late with her..
and its true, the two times i was supposed to leave for uni with her I was late.. And shockingly not because of myself..

(Childish Petra is looking for more reasons to be pissed at the fool - ignore)

But Yes..
Uni has made me Animé obsessed, I've actually watched things XD
(Zero no Tsukaima seasons 1 and 2 XD, Fruits Basket, Ah! MY Goddess, Azumanga Dioh, Full Moon Wo Sagashite, that Wallflower one etc etc)

So now my list of seen animes is not; 
Sailor Moon... and Cardcaptors when i was little..
and Pokémon back in the day !!

And Im reading Manga (Fruits Basket but yes XD)

Very proud of myself XD I will be even more of a freak by the end of the year XDXDXD

Miss my fados tho... I heard a clip of some on tv and got all nostalgic for Portugal-ness.. and then Nia rang and I got even more so.. Miss being Portuguese :'(
Also miss my novelas..

I also miss sitting down and watching a film.. Didnt bring any DVDs with me and I am always on my laptop.. dont really want to watch anything else on it.. might bring the DVD player with me next time I come back from London and just sit in the living room watching Hairspray till 5 in the morning.. 

I WANT A Wiii!!!

I am  SHMEXY
XD

Just had the longest biochemistry lecture :(

my lecturer is the reincarnation of Borat..

"and they will not let you in and will say no. You cannot come her as you may make criminals"

No. Joke.

*sigh*

I stayed awake due to laughing, fidgeting and of course, laughing at other people as the drooled.

Now I have to wait here until 4 so I can go do a stupid lab until 5..

Plus point is I'm free on wednsday. 

Am probs going home on thurs..
Have no moneys tho, for train etc.

And then my placement Pharmacy is in Gravesend!!
How scary does that sound?
GravesEnd.

Is that even in Medway? No. Its in Kent. But Kents in Medway.. No. Medway is in Kent..

You see, when you have grown up in London, everywhere else is foreign,...

 My entries are really long..

*TEEHEE*

And i love how Esther is TRYING to sulk.

ERM.
Outsulk me?
Moi?
Outsulk Petra?

Nononono..
when you have spent your life growing up in a Portuguese soap opera..
erm.
no.

noone can outsulk me XD

its quite funny that she is trying.

Silent treatment does not work on me XD
Cos I always last longer..


Its hilarious that I, at 19, am more mature than a 27 year old woman.

Baka.

XD

Me and Lindy went out and 'got lost on purpose' in Gillingham.
We walked for over an hour with no direction.
and then we look up and see we are standing two streets away from where we started
XD

we are foreign.

Yesh..

Uni XD Spent today writing out my  PDDA1 lectures (when i was not getting lost on purpos) - Petra is staying on top of her work XD

HOW DO I HAVE TO BE WITH SUMBAYEV (from now on[or when i can remember] referred to as Doritto [ due to the shape of his nose ]) FROM 11 TILL 5??   thats 2 lectures and a workshop with the same man back to back..

Foreign.

He lives on my road apparently...


yes.

UNI!!

Oh. My. Gosh.

Big Blowout today
re. Pattycake & Co. (ie. Rats)

I hate argument, I get enough of them at home with steph but I refuse to avoid them if someone is getting picked on.
Its not right. I hate bullying.

So far I've had little to complain about over my roommate Esther
==> She's been lovely to me, but for the last few days it looks like she has been looking for a fight.
I've successfully avoided all of them.

Esther keeps picking with Kehinde, the new girl from Nigeria.
I really think she just has those moods.. After living on her own for so many years, she's not used to being surrounded by other people.

So;
This morning I was happily lazing away in bed when I hear raised voices from downstairs. I decide its time to get up, grab my robe and towel and make my way through the living room (Good morning Kehinde) and then through the kitchen (good morning Esther) to the bathroom.

As I walk through the kitchen, Esther asks me in a raised voice if I keep food in my room.

I say no, cos i dont. She says out loud, You see, thats good, we don't want any rats upstairs. Isnt it wrong to keep bread in your room?

(Kehinde had said she had some bread in her room)

Me: Dont bring me into it.
I go shower.

The floor was a little bit wet so I thought to myself, I will go upstairs and change, its not drastic, and then come down and mop up.

I go up, grab my washing and come back down to find Lindz in the bathroom.

Esther; You could have wiped the floor before you came out, now linda is in there, what if i needed the bathroom?
Me; It wasnt that bad, I just thought I'd dry it a bit more.
Esther; you could have done it before you left.
Me; I know, but I didnt.

Passes. I begin putting my clothes in the washing machine.
Esther keeps trying to start the conversation about food in rooms with me, i told her I feel uncomfortable and just to leave, Kehinde knows now, let her do it at her own pace.  I then tried to change the subject, it got to the point where Esther on her own steam got into a huff and said she was going to call the landlord and ask if it was alright to put food in rooms if there is a rodent problem.

WTF?
Why does this girl insist on calling the landlord EVERY DAY?
He's not her father.

This WOMAN is 27 years old. She cannot do one thing without ringing the landlord?
I told her to leave it and I would talk to Kenny(Kehinde)

I do, and as I do, Esther tries to start up a conversation with Linda seeing as I am not being rallied up like she wants me to.

Kenny tells me Esther is pissing her off (not in so many words) and that she really feels like leaving the house.

I tell her to just let it roll off her back. Do as I do and let it go in one ear and out the other. Just to make sure that there is no food in her room because we REALLY do not want rats in our rooms ( bad enough in the kitchen)

I go to tell Esther it has been sorted but she is desperate to ring the landlord.

It ends up being a massive arguement between me and her.
Why?
Me: I spoke to Kenny
Her: Im calling the landlord
Me: There is no need to call the landlord, its sorted
Her: Why are you scared of calling the landlord?
Me: Im not scared, i just dont see a need, this is a house discussion, he doesnt need to be here.
Her: But she is not listening.
Me: She just said she was
Her: SHUT UP PETRA.

...
No.
She just started SCREAMING at me to Shut up.
What.The. Fuck.

She lost that arguement then and there.

I am not doormat petra anymore. I do not let people walk over me, she doesnt like Kehinde. she didnt want James to live with us because he was a guy and i think mainly because he was white.
She didnt want her friend living with us i think mainly because she was a muslim.
She said to me, I prefer to have someone who understands our faith more.

Thats fine I guess.
But she got so happy when Kehinde appeared, because Kehinde is from Nigeria. Not Ghana like Esther so its not a perfect match, but at least she is West African. I could practically hear her mind working.

But then she found out Kehinde is a muslim, and I think since then she has liked her less.


Which is stupid beyond comprehension. I wish someone could have taken a photo of her face when she heard a white girl (me) was moving in. She hasnt really discriminated about me yet, but i hear her talking about other cultures and things and I just think, when I'm not here, what do you say about me?


I also think she is just ranting and raving because she is used to being in control of where she is living. She lived in a studio flat alone for the last few years and has been living in this house by herself from August to late september. She has the double room of the house so she pays like £30 more in rent FOR HER ROOM.

I think she thinks this gives her control over the house. It Does Not Work Like That.

The landlords cant stand her. She bugged him so much he actually said; If you're not happy, hand in your notice.


I CANNOT STAND BULLYING.
And she keeps picking at Kehinde. She tries to with me but I keep answering back so she just gives up.

Kehinde is a freshie, she just flew in to her first time in England two weeks ago.
Her control of the english language isnt as good as mine. She cant defend herself. All she answers is; Ok. I dont know. And Esther teases her because of this. Its irritating for me.

And today was out of order so I jumped in. And my control of the english language is AMAZING. So Esther got so pissed she started screaming SHUT UP SHUT UP.

If i was in the wrong I would have said it, I have stopped many arguements in the past that way. I have no problem admitting Im wrong. Ive never had a problem with it, its all part of being human.
But today I wasnt wrong. And you cannot beat me in an arguement when I know I'm right.

And THAT is what pissed her off.

Oh well.
It should pass... just let it settle I keep saying. but now Kenny is talking about moving out :(

So its like... all because of Esther?
I'm not paying an extra 90 a month because Esther drove KEnny out.

No. Way.

Oh.My.Days XD

!!!!!UNI!!!!!

Petra is now a Pharmacy student XD

Moved in to the house on thursday XD
Happy Happy Happy.
Although cried loads, Steph's face.. :'(
My mum made matters worste though, crying..

But yes, the next day I just worked to make my room liveable, and it is now XD
my mum cried when she saw the photos



then the uni bbqs XD

LOTS of people.
I was thinking to myself, thank God I flow now (i know what I mean)

A couple of shmexy people as well which i was suprised I noticed and actually engaged in conversation with.

Quite a lot of chavs. But they seem friendly, one quite sexy chav (omg. i know) and I spoke about the shite-ness of the veggie sausages and the lack of buns.
But it was great. Laughed a lot.

Latino. I am european, but I am also Latina. I am a european latina. DEAL.

HENTAI GUY!!
I was talking to some girl and all I hear is the word Hentai coming from the group next to me

Guy: ....blahblahblah... HENTAI .. blahblah..
Me: WTF? HENTAI?
Him: NONONONO, I was talking about..
Spanish Guy: Whats Hentai?
Mauritian guy: Cartoon Porn
Spanish Guy: Cartoons? Why? Why not real thing?
HentaiGuy: Nono, we were just talking. *we berate him(aided by me so he tries to salvage it by trying to make it a joke) I know, I'm a pervert. *then points at himself and says loudly "PERVERT PERVERT")

We look at him like... erm.. ok, but it was great, cos we were all laughing,
later the guy told me that he was actually talking about his friend who does graphic design and so downloaded boatloads of hentai for his work and manages to make it look amazing..

I was just like.. erm.. if you say so XD

but again, great, everyione is amazingly nice XD


and then today was registration XD
I hearted my group XD
So far
Jess - Lovely. She was so easy to talk to and such, even walked me home and then I walked her to somerfield, she was very nervous, and the only mature student in our group, but she was great..
Kirin - Again, very sweet.. quite shy, but got talking to the Patel guy(all i remember was his last name)
Patel guy - My sister would love him, he actually seems very sweet, he spoke to me and didnt act like a dick
Chinese guy - Aww, I just wanted to pinch his cheeks, he kept asking about research and such so i was thinking.. hmm, useful study buddy XD He was really friendly.. Like he spoke to me and we joked about my nickname
Ooooh! Remembered his name ; Robert.
Salma - She seemed a bit offish.. .. maybe ...... yesh, we will see.

I BOUGHT MY LABCOAT!! and goggles!! XD

and it was great.. am going to scan some of my written things because it allows for more expression,.. and doodles XD


Erm.. yes..
Housemates?
Lindy - who I love now and forever XD my munchkin. My little alcoholic who has yet to set fire to anything, although she has destroyed her hairdryer..
Esther - OMG this girl helped me so much, she  is lovely.. Very sweet, helpful, and Im really amazed we got on straight away
Kahindi - New in from Nigeria yesterday.. She is nice, very stressed, although she wants to use my laptop all the time and I feel guilty saying no.. like now she is waiting to use the laptop but I dont want to come off yet and i feel like a bitch but its true.. 

On the topic of cheese..
is it on fire?

I abuse my free texts XD

Texting is fun.. you are communicating with people in under 50 characters (or in my case, over)

Friends are funly..

GOSSIP!! DRAMA!!
Always happen when I'm not around.. (E+J as told to my by S)

VMAs!!
my favouritest awards show since I was like 13..
*Nsync XD those were the days...

I have a spot in my nostril..
I keep listening to Nessun Dorma XD
RIP Pavarotti

Vincero.

Xata starts sixth form tomorrow all so grown yo XD

NOTE:
You prob won't get it unless you're me XD

For the record ; Carmi is in love with Matt and Frodolijah in real life.. Therefore..

XD I didnt make the actors or the actresses but i did find the photos on the internet all by myself XD

I own everything and nothing.