I'm thinking this is now permanantly (or as before when I remember, as it has been for the past few posts) friends only..




Comment to be added XD

(and I dont care :P)

Take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2008. That's your year in review.

OIOI XD
I have placement tomorrow but its already half 1 and i havent packed to go back to london so i think i will miss placement..
I was up all night vomiting. It was yuck.
Yeah man.
Watched Channel 4's embarassing bodies show yesterday.
One of teh best weekends in a looong while (not counting the bubbling drama underneath)
went to kent yesterday and packed up the rest of my things.
Petra is not a happy bunny.
Petra spent the whole summer working and yet she is BROKE.
Just got back.
LJ just ate a beautiful post.
A- Do you know its possible to clone your willy?

LOL.

LOL

.........WHY PORTUGUESE PEOPLE CAN'T BE TERRORISTS............

1. 8:45 am is too early for us to be up.

2. We are always late, we would have missed all 4 flights.

3. Pretty people on the plane distract us.

4. We would talk loudly and bring attention to ourselves.

5. With food and drinks on the plane, we would forget why we're there.

6. We talk with our hands, therefore we would have to put our weapons down.

7. We would ALL want to fly the plane

8. We would argue and start a fight in the plane.

9. We can't keep a secret, we would have told everyone a week before doing it.

10. We would have put our country's flag reflector on the tail
of the plane.

XD

Petras room is now tidy XD


and so is my mind.

Resolutions;
(cos I feel like having them)

• Pass January MCQs
• Seriously study for end of year exams
• Drop a dress size by easter (and more if pos)

If I do these, which seem really realistic me thinks; Petra will get a tattoo.
I want to lose weight before getting one cos I want to be able to show it off without stressing about my body size.

Methods of completing resolutions; (need methods otherwise they stay in the air and do not get done)
Passing exams --> applying some work ethic damn you! No more just watching anime etc. study. THEN watch and relax. I will do this.
Losing weight --> Bringing back the calorie counting :'(

Its not like I eat a lot of crap, I havent had a takeaway once this year, I think I just eat too much of what I do eat and I stay inactive.
So I think I will eat less and find ways of staying active..
Eat my dinner earlier as well.. like get home from uni . eat . study . relax . bed.

Petra will achieve. The calorie counting works. Lets go XD

Ok peoples. Have been ill the past weekend. it is now tuesday evening and I have to hand in a 1,500 word lab report by tomorrow 4pm.
It is doable.. ya?

ya.
Except I don't understand a word as I am still feverish and we did this stupid experiment on the 22/10...

Time: 23:26
Number of words; 193

EDIT:
I've done nothing other than mime to my ipod and mess about on facebook.
Time: 01:51
Number of words ; 407 + Table

The psycho got her 30day notice from the landlord on Sunday XD

*happy dance*

She went psycho on me and Linda after I asked her POLITELY (no joke - I was sick. I didnt want an arguement) to turn down the volume of the tv after she raised it to the max cos me and linda were talking IN LINDAS ROOM.

She then started screaming at me that I was a bitch and for me to fuck off and then she would turn it down.

I then asked her why she couldnt be civil?

And she switched even more saying I insulted her calling her uncivilised and that it was the rudest thing ever and I QUOTE have no right to be rude to her UNQUOTE.

Please note;
Petra at this point has not raised her voice.
Petra at this point has not cursed.
Petra at this point has not even made any funny hand gestures.

I then walked to the tv to manually turn the volume down at which point she stood up and walked right up to me yelling all sorts of abuse at me. How she hates me. How I am rude. How I am insulting. How she regrets me ever coming to live with her. How she hates me so much. How I deserve a slap.

She kept screaming "YOU DESERVE A SLAP" whilst waving the remote control in the air. to which I calmly replied;
Then slap me Esther. Noones stopping you. Slap me. You say I deserve it. Do it. Slap me.
To which she replied ; Of course I wont. Cos I know its wrong. But you deserve it cos you're stupid.
Maybe you were raised like that you bitch! YOUR STUPID! YOUR A DEMON GO TO HELL You BITCH. Go to live in a bush!

Erm. I really felt like calling her a sack of wine.
I was so.. calm. I think that made her even more pissed off.

She was getting aggressive tho, actually pushing her chest upon mine and bringing her face up to mine whilst spraying me with her spit. again. I wouldnt back down tho. I am stubborn like that. I wouldnt step back, would just hold my ground and watch her.

Linda started getting worried tho so she started screaming at Esther to calm down, Esther then began directing her abuse at Linda to which Linda began backing away and screaming at Esther to shut up and calm down. I then started shouting at Esther to calm down, cos she was getting even more dangerous. Kenny then got home and started calling me upstairs. It tore me to leave the argument. Kennt was just like; Petra. I beg you. Please come upstairs. Please go to your room Petra. Please.
So I did. Feeling like a child I walked up the stairs screaming that she needs
"mental help. Anger management counselling. She's insane. She really is a psycho. She needs God. The psycho needs to find God."

I bet she LOVED that. She already believes she is God's gift to earth.
Such a hypocrite xtian. I can't stand them.

She called Linda a hypocrite cos Linda was yelling at her to calm down when "she went to church today."

But Esther, who didnt go to church today (neither did I btw) is the best xtian because she insults people, abuses them, is violent etc etc.

Anywho, as I am walking angrily into my room not really sure whether to laugh or cry, I realise Linda is behind me holding her phone, we walk into my room and she angrily tells me she is ringing the landlord cos she cant take it anymore.

Ringing the landlord had not even crossed my mind. but it was a good thing she did. The landlady told us it would be a few days forthem to write up her notice and then it would be 30 days.

We sit in my room slightly relieved. Me not really believing. We have been through this before (ie. my post on the 25th October) but then 15minutes later a knock at the door.

Linda runs downstairs to open it and its a slightly angry landlord with Esther's eviction notice XD

His words;
"We've never really got on, I've bent over backwards to make you comfortable Esther, and I've given you three chances. Tonight is the final straw"

Esther then began to lie like everything was my fault. Like she has NEVER sworn at me. Like she was justified in pushing me before.
that I was "verbally abusive"

For calling her childish, uncivil and immature. that is pretty much all I would call her. THATS verbally abusive?
so whats what she says to everyone else?

But then he told her (after she lost her temper and started getting rude);
Petra has Linda. Linda has Petra. Kenny is neutral, but it looks like they get on. You have noone. Do you realise how petty your arguements are? Nothing will ever be perfect. If you want perfect, go live in a bedsit by yourself.

2nd January. Which basically means, we break up for xmas on the 14th. If I go back around the 16th, we start uni on the 7th so if I come back just before that, she will be gone before the end of the xmas holidays XD and I onl have to spend another 12 days or so with her XD

RELIEF XD

Ps.

Petra is sick :'(

BUT HAPPY XD

So ya peoples. Petra this morning wakes up early, WAITS for the psycho to finish getting ready as she "needs" to go out and photocopy a copy of her council tac exemption certificate..
Needs ==> She wants to be difficult. She could have, like Kenny and myself did, given it to linda, but nope. wants to be difficult.
The deal was, linda would get up first, then we would wait for the psycho to get out of the shower so I could do my thing while she went to the photocopy place, but no. difficult as usual, she gets up at 10, spends 45mins in the shower, and THEN tells Linda she has decided not to give the certificate but to tell the people at the council tax place that hers would be sent seperatly.

WTF?
She couldnt have said this yesterday?
I have been up since 8.30.. but stayed in my room otherwise if she thought I was awake and waiting for her she would have taken even more time. She couldnt have said this before? Linda has been ready since 9ish. w.t.f?

so at 11, I go to the bathroom to do ma thing XD
sit down and I hear the LOUDEST SCRATCHES. Like something is trying to claw its way out the wall. Just SCRATCHSCRATCHSCRATCH. I freak, jump up, wipe my arse from afar, wash my hands grab my things, pull the flush and run quickly out of the bathroom.

It sounded EXACTLY like when Pattycake was trying to get out of his trap.

:O
Petra ==> Scared
I then told Linda and she waited as I banged all the walls and radiators in the bathroom to see if Patino (name for Rat2) would jump out. He didnt, no other noise.. But yes.
NOT THE TYPE OF NOISES ONE WANTS TO HEAR WHILST THEY ARE HAVING A SHIT.

We are on the watch..

As we are talking the psycho comes down and puts her clothes in the washing machine.
STUPID BITCH. My fault really, because you know, if I had done it first, my clothes would have been out of the machine within a few minutes of it finishing. She ran out of the house (literally.. she is always late you see) after that and you know she will come back tonight and the clothes will still be there tomorrow morning.
MEH.

Oh well, Dad and Nan are coming to visit me tomorrow, wouldnt want them to see my room draped with washing that dries too slow..

PETRA ==> ILL
My throat is beginning to get sore and im starting to congest.

Righty-o peoples.
Petra is no longer going to madeira for new years :(
My mum sort of woke up and realised - no money - noone to look after the dog - not as easy as she was making it sound.
So ya, any plans for new years that dont involve a lot of money? My mum started talking about going to a portuguese club for dinner and music etc but I hate those places, people stare and judge you constantly and you are always under the microscope and my mum still recent scandals with my dad are still fresh so you know it will be worste and then theres the whole, dad, nan thing and yes.

Would prefer if with friends.. so  Petra will be beginning ringing round to see if anything interesting is happening..
Need to tidy my room for father and nans visit, and then need to begin my other lab report for Sumbayev. :(

ILL!

Effin hilarious XD

Petra is of course going through a bleach obsession (she does this with everthing)

I think Renji is shmexy XD I so definitely would XD

This makes me piss myself in that it is so well done XD

XD
I have 1234 songs on my ipod XD

and how many do I actually listen to?

At least I know most of them..

Don't you just love when you are working on something and you realize you understand something XD
I think I am pulling an all nighter tonight to finish ileum so I can hand it in on wednsday bright and early without much stress...

I don't trust myself to sleep and do it tomorrow afternoon..
Not going to my seminar tomorrow morning.. not really necessary me donts thinks..
but then PDDA1 lecture which I doubt I can miss.. espec not after my choking incident.. aparently we start cardiovascular tomorrow.. should be interesting..
but i am quite embarassed to admit I'm really liking the endocrinology..
I will probably hate it come revision (TOO MANY HORMONES! No wonder people are fcuk-ed up XD)

but yes..
CRACK ON PETRA XD

And I love how my mum is like. Oh, you took the 3-mobile bill with you yesterday. Send it back

And then she has a go at me for not knowing where to keep the dog when we go madeira for a week.
ERM.
I've told her already, the dog needs to get her booster shots before anywhere will take her in. PLUS She needs to research and book somewhere.

Albeit its my dog. BUT its not fair that I am stressed with a deadline that I'm worried I won't be able to keep, and yet she is asking me in KENT to find out about kennels in LONDON when I gave her a list 2 weeks ago which she ignored and lost.
And then she makes it sound like its my fault.
 I really dont want to go madeira with her anymore..
I'm thinking about it now and it is going to be hell..
Mums still going through her midlife crisis and as much as I love her it is HELL to watch her flirt and act like an idiot with men a little older than me.
I actually feel physically sick and I start boiling over with this sort of rage type thing and I feel like I'm gonna cry and I get all irritable and its disgusting. Especially since she has been doing it since before dad left and she acts like an idiot and I hate it.

EVILEVILEVIL FEELINGS

EVIL EVIL DEADLINES!!

why do they make me emo?!

BTW;
Anyone want to look after a 3yr old Staffie baby for a week over new years?
No?
Thought not :'(

So today..
was alright

FINALLY got my police check form back when I have been waiting for it since october.
And it says my DOB is the 30th September 1986.
Which is fine.. Cos you know, whatever and all.
Except I was born on the 29th June 1988.

XD
I stupidly told this to the Blake Building man, and he was like.. oh. didnt even notice it..  but now that you've said it..
so now i have to go back into blake tomorrow..
drama.

ileum!!
People are scaring me with stories of how long its taking them..
Petra will have to crack on.
No. Choice.

It will be in well before 4pm Wednsday.

Yesh.

Today was fine till about 1.20
CRB and then in the Endocrinology workshop..
my gosh..
We had to do presentations on the effects of diabetes mellitus on various organs.. my group got given the heart and we had to choose someone to go up and present to the class. Everyone was like.. GO PETRA GO! XD
Petra is good at speaking XD Go Petra go!

So I was like.. erm.. ok XD
but then we got the times pooed up and realised we were due to give our presentation 10mins before the time.. so I was rushing to write down things whilst people gave me pretty useless adding thing on things but group efforts.. have to add it.

before I went up I looked at my sheet and was just like. Yes. Nice. Going to be a great presentation. Everybody claps and its great.

I get to the front of the lab and *VOOOOOOOSH*
Blank.
I look at my sheet and I just think to myself. Gibberish. WTF is that?
A LITERAL SENTENCE WAS;
"Yes. and when.. the blood.. clogs. blood clot in the heart.. erm, yeah, too much pressure moomoomeh you have a heart attack"

I was just.... BLANK.

AND I CAN DO PUBLIC SPEAKING!
It was the most embarassing thing ever.. I couldnt even laugh at myself for it.. I was mortified.
I know about diabetes. I know about the heart. Why couldnt I speak!?
but nope.
Blank.
The lecturers were looking at me like.. is she serious.. and everyone was just .. staring.
and I am articulate for shit like that.
I do not care about how man eyes are on me, I can!
But I didnt.
and.. yes.

I sort of called my friend Ester to rescue me and she did the rest of the presentation whilst Diar smirked from her seat like YAY! Petra got caught out.

Diar --> Nice and all, like she has never been openly rude to me, but she makes me uncomfortable in that, whenever she asks me somethine ESPECIALLY in dispensing, she acts like she is always trying to discredit me.
Like people take Warfarin the blood thinner is also used as rat poison. She didnt believe that but its just general knowledge that I was certain of.
Or when we are to complete our dispensing worksheets. She will ask me something and then give me a look like, whatever and ask anyone else..
and she never says, oh, you were right ( cos i always am XD). Its always;
See, Petra, you were sort of right, but sort of wrong. We don't have to write it down, but it's alright if we do cos.

And then I hear her talking in arabic and im just like. HMM. SHARMUTA. IF YOU ARE TO TALK ABOUT ME DO IT IN ENGLISH.

Like when I was in Slaggamanning, I was surrounded by my Portchis, so we would just talk in and out of portchi, but never talking about people, if you have something to say about someone say it to their face. only fair.
yes.

Notice how I do long posts after weeks of absence around deadline season.

Camden and Dayton Thomas.
Fighting the war against cabbage and poodles in top hats XD

HEART MA TWIN
xxxx

...
Aahh! I can't seem to get to work on my guinea pig ileum write up :'(
I NEED TO DO IT!!
I dont want to have to do the whole all nighter thingie like usual..
I will have this done before wednsday..
I will.
I will.
I will.

Went home this weekend to spend the weekend doing a whole lot of nothing on the sofa, with my laptop. SUPPOSED to be doing the lab report. But really just wouldnt. would do 5 minutes of research and then 3 hours of youtube-ing.

WHY AM I EMO-ING WHEN I HAVE A 3000 WORD LAB REPORT DUE ON WEDNSDAY?!

What is it about deadlines that make me long post?!

..

I do not make sense

IPOD on Shuffle Interview

How am I feeling today?
Beautiful Liar - Shakira and Beyoncé

Will I get far in life?
With a Broken Wing - Martina McBride

awww! Thats quite depressing :'(

How do my friends see me?
Lost without you - Robin Thicke
XD

Where will I get married?
A Sunday (acoustic) - Jimmy Eat World

What is my best friends theme song?
Floribella theme tune XD

What is the story of my life?
turn off the lights - Nelly Furtado

What is/was high school like?
Encontros e Despedidas - Maria Rita
... SO TRUE :O

How can I get ahead in life?
Over the ocean - Nine Black Alps

What is the best thing about me?
Wake up alone - Amy Winehouse



How is today going to be?
Trapped in the Closet (parts 1-12) - R. Kelly

What's in store for this weekend?
London Underground song
LMAO! AND IM IN LONDON!!
Freaky XD

What song describes my parents?
Hurt - Xtina

(that is actually freaky)

What song describes my grandparents?
Pokémon theme tune XD
LMAO

How is my life going?
Clint Eastwood - Gorillaz

What song will play at my funeral?
Ironic - Alanis Moristte

How does the world see me?
I need a hero - Bonnie Tyler

Will I have a happy life?
Go the distance - Hercules

What do my friends really think of me?
O sole mio - Luciano Pavarotti

Do people secretly lust after me?
Mentirosa - Rafaga

How can I make myself happy?
I wish you were here - Incubus

What should I do with my life?
Good Morning Baltimore - Hairspray

Will I ever have children?
Come what may - Moulin Rouge

What is some good advice for me?
Come Clean - Hillary Duff

How will I be remembered?
Through the rain - Mariah Carey.

What do I think my current theme song is?
Spiderman - The Ramones

What type of men/women do you like?
Cellblock Tango - Chicago

What does your man/woman love about you?
For You - The Calling

What song do you secretly love?
Shimauma no Yoru - Ouran High School Host Club OST

What do you want to do tomorrow?
Intermission - Nine Black Alps


LMAO.. Erm.. if you were to psychoanalyze these... yesh XD

my ipod is random..

So random arse night..

the PREB went and spoke to linda. about me. and about yesterday.

The preb thinks she is being bullied.
W.T.F?

She has also removed the washing up things that "she bought" and also taken her magnets off the fridge.

ERM.

Not to mention she has not bought her share of the loo roll this week (each week one person is sposed to buy 6)
She also hasnt cleaned a thing. (we have a rota)

But Petra is happy so will not rant about her
( I apologize for all this ranting, but this is sadly, the biggest thing happening to me at the momment, and this lj is my only form of venting.. I dont like talking to people about things like this much.. I know, Petra. LOVES talking. But put in emotions into what I'm talking about, and unless its something I'm passionate about I sadly stay kaput.)

Was talking to Lindy in the living room when she gets a phonecall inviting us to go to Ruu's house for fireworks XD

YAY!! I was like.. erm, yar.

And we went XD
AND RANDOMLY.
My friend Leo was there. He was like WTF? Petra?! Hiiii!! and we hugged and it was great XD
Turns out this is his third year at medway, after constantly switching courses.. so he is friends with Linda's friends XD Great.

So we went into their garden and set off the fireworks XD
There was so much and it was pretty and I got happy with a sparkler and yes. I found myself hoping from one foot to the other clapping my hands looking like a dick XD but it made me so happy.. Just the fact that I was with people who, although I barely knew, were just amazingly nice and funny (although I did get taken the piss out of for looking so happy) and then I rode a bike XD
It was great.. XD

Yesh. Sleepy.. have an 11am start tomorrow now XD so can lie in..

Also, we went to the 24hr tesco (SPEEDING?! LITERALLY 100MILES AN HOUR! ARENT THESE PEOPLE SCARED?!) so petra has food for tomorrow XD
even better..

nitenite
xx

I can't be bothered to go and make myself a coffee :'(

If only I could have one delivered to my room..

But I don't trust many peoples with my coffee's..

Starbucks only barely get it right.. and thats by compromising..


...

Why is Petra going on about coffee?
Not even she knows..
all I do know is that I have a lot of sugary goodness at my disposal...

It is bad..
grandma brought me lil portchi cookies (called broas) and REAL madeira cake (which looks [and can taste if not made properly] like its made of tar and is called Bolo do Mel)
I also have custard downstairs.. and some fake tesco madeira cake (which is the sponge one that everyone knows)

I should make proper food..
:'(
CANT BE BOTHERED!!

I should do it before Esther gets back to avoid arguements..
or chance for her to start again..

BUT why should I be civilised...

Meh. Ignore me.
my Id is pissed off and my ego is siding with him. I think even my super-ego is siding with him.
Because Esther is anally explusive. ANd it is pissing the 3 me's that make me up pissed.

ANALLY EXPULSIVE BITCH!

Psychology taught me that much XD

I like my man..
Like I like my coffee..
Tall. Strong and Sweet like toffee woah...

ie.
My perfect coffee...

1 spoon of coffee.
2 spoons of sugar (heaped)
A teeny-weeny bit of milk.. (this is the most crucial part.. Too much and it tastes like sour water, too little.. and.. its too strong)

XD

Sex in a cup.

ESPECIALLY.. when it is at the exact right temperature.. Hot.. But not too hot.. but still hot..

YUM.

I was told to add a spoon of hot chocolate to my coffee as an extra pick me up..

Eet eesh good...
But not so much like-ey my recipe..

OOOoooh..

and those cookies that you buy in the supermarket.. After 27seconds in the microwave..

*drool*

And of course;

Petra had to go and do the stupid jump on the bandwagon thing and watch the first few eps of Bleach.

Meh.

AND NOW SHE IS ADDICTED!
I am stupid.

Its just a lot better than I expected... I was sort of imagining... ishy Naruto.. which is good, but the eps ive seen (1-13) arent amazing.. then again, I was hooked at the time.. then...
meh..


XD
I am foreign XD

Can I just Say;

I fucking love my family

XD

My grandma came over from madeira yesterday and is staying in my house in London, but today, Gma, Steph and Mum came up to visit me XD

It was great, they brought me things
(Gma broat Broas XD and douradas XD --> YUM)

and mum brought my teddy (the big doggie one)

it. was. smashing..

Beforehand, I was in my room with my ipod on getting it clean and tidy and through my headphones I hear a bang bang (we have no doorbell)
my family had been knocking on the door for AGES. Esther being the adult that she is didnt inform me, even though her window is directly above the door, and her window was open (like always) and my mum had been beeping.

Bitch.
So we were in my room, the four of us laughing and talking and it was great, then my mum was like, I need to go toilet.. I was like.. erm ok
Steph went after her, and I see them come up the stairs after a few minutes grinning.

Steph informed me that Mum had spoken to Esther, and Esther had promptly run up to her room.
I don't know what was said, but I do know that Esther was on the phone very loudly to someone I suspect was the landlord.

HAR.

I told my mum to ignore her, she wasnt worth it, but i did suspect my mum would say something.. I was hoping she wouldnt but I couldnt contain the feeling of glee.

Steph heard her conversation (she talks for the world) and STeph got pissed, started asking me to knock on her door to call the bitch out to ask her what her problem was.. Steph was PROPER angry.. and she doesnt even know about hte pushing incident.

But then they left XD
Happy Happy...

I can just imagine the bitches face..
XD

Im happy XD

EDIT:

GRRRRRRRRRR

SHE JUST THREATENED TO GET HER BROTHER FROM LONDON TO COME AND GET ME TO STRANGLE ME

Screaming at me calling me the DEVIL. THE DEVIL COME TO TEMPT HER.
STAMPING HER FEET. SCREAMING DEVIL.

Also, anything that I have said to her, she said back to me; ie. child.
INSULTED MY MOTHER.

She just started screaming at me "YOU ARE THE DEVIL DEVIL DEVIL DEVIL TEMPTING ME TEMPTING ME DEVIL"

YOU LEAVE YOUR HAIRS EVERYWHERE DEVIL DEVIL DEVIL! Bringing her face RIGHT UP to mine and spraying me with her spit.

And did I mention that the anti-muslim racist prejudiced bitch has made friends with Kenny.. She was so lonely she made friends with a muslim..
Wooah. She must really be desperate

I'm hoping Kenny is smart enough to not jump on the "we are both african --> Evil white girl" band wagon and stop talking to me..
Not being funny, but after everything..


I rang the landlord and they were like --> Erm. Ok, there is not much we can do.

ERM.
The bitch threatened me.
WTF?

I was like, she has violated her tenancy agreement twice. She has been abusive, violent, I can't live like this.

Them - Err. Ok, we will talk to her, she can't be violent.

I really want her out of this house, she was screaming at me to go. She lost all senses.

EDIT 2:
Linda just text me (she is on her way back from london)
The landlord just rang her and said that we three (linda, kenny and moi) need to sit down and talk about her and what we are going to do about her.

I'm worried that now Esther has made (me thinks temporary) peace with Kenny, Kenny will forget her evilness..

I really want her gone. I love my mum so much for this. and yet.. has it made it worste?
I'm not leaving this house, Esther thinks she has won.. although she did run to her room.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR